I’m not a competitor. I mean I don’t like to “race” for classifications, for age-group rankings. That’s why I prefer starting running events or triathlons compared to cycling races, where all that matters is victory or a topSTHG ranking. However, at my modest level, I’m still performance orientated and my motivation is almost always associated with an objective of finish time.
Maybe this is my problem… Because this is still competition. But this time, it’s a race against one single competitor.
In the beginning, it was easy to beat him. Then it seems that he improved because he was defeating me at times. And now I’m the one who struggles and it gets more and more difficult to win. Ultimately I will always lose.
This competitor is me, more precisely my past. My former references, my previous training laps, my old finish times, my PBs… my young days.
Should I try to beat him one more time or should I move to other motivations?